If you always feel that you are NOT thin enough. Read.

Sakit ng mga kalamnan ko. Ganito pala after BLS at after mag "Push Hard, Push Fast." Na-stretch ng kaunti ang mga katabaan. Speaking of katabaan, I feel like blogging about eating disorders, Anorexia and Bulimia. Sinong meron? Itaas ang kamay...

ME.

Nung isang araw, di ko nalang biglang mapigil na biglang kumain, na-tomjones talaga ako te. As in KAIN. May nakita ako sa fridge, tirang ulam. Linafang ko to the max.

Sarap eh, you know, kumain. Pero after.....pinagsisihan ko, at bigla ko na lang naisip mag purge. Shet. Bulimic.

Oo na. Alam ko mali. Pero, guilting-guilty talaga ako. Ayaw ko ng tumaba, utang na loob. I'm currently obsessed sa weight ko. When I wake up in the morning, compulsion ko ang mag timbang. So going back to the topic, after purging, ang sakit ng lalamunan ko, at nasusuka pa ako ulit, parang there's food left in my throat that needs to go.

Ayaw ko na sya gawin ulit. Ang sakit eh, literal. So ibang measures na ang ginawa ko. I looked for Dulcolax everywhere. Warning: Sa mga kumakain po sa mga kani-kanilang mga tahanan, the next sentence is yucky, so......ayun...Babae sa Septic Tank na ang peg ko, if you know what I mean, para i'd feel less guilty sa mga kinain ko. So, I won't get into the eeewwy details, okay? Pero i-gif nalang natin.... LOL.

WAHAHAHAHA! 

I'm almost out of my diet pills, and I want another kind. What I'm taking now is like a placebo. I thought these diet pills were supposed to make me less hungry, so why have i been starving literally 24/7 since i started taking them? LOL. It doesn't suppress my appetite at all!! Have you ever tried diet pills? Did they work? What kind? Mine is this...

I'm trying not to do it again (Binging and Purging). I'm trying to change my habits. I'm trying to chew my food as much as I can, counting 50 seconds before swallowing it.

I tend to skip breakfast and some meals, I try to sleep it off. I'm trying not to starve myself. I'm trying...and hoping no ulcers please!!  

Now, I'm deciding to do something about it. I want a change in my lifestyle. I want that skinny summer body. LOL. 

So I went looking for a Zumba class near me. I really need to work out, even just for an hour/day, but not forgetting to be ready for ACLS in 15 days. An hour won't hurt right? I'll still have the rest of the day with my book. I'm really worried though. I hope I get through ACLS alive. LOL

EGG-zayted to take this course!!!

I just want to be thin, fit and happy. I feel the need to burn this calories!!! I'm soooooo excited to sweat. I'll let you know if the Zumba class is effective or not. I'll blog how the sessions went after a week and maybe try to do treadmills in between and document. I just hope Zumba won't kick my ass.

Current Weight: 120+++++++++ lbs

Unrealistic Goal after Zumba: 100 lbs

LEZ do this!!! So, how about you? What are your thoughts about losing weight? Have you tried Zumba? Feel free to comment. To all my readers out there na medyo chubby, mag damayan tayo!! LOL.

Well, I think that's it for now!! Ta-tah!!

Smooches,

P