Ako ay isang frustrated Beauty Queen. I wish I could be that girl. The IT girl. The girl that every guy drools over. The girl with the Beauty and the Brains. The girl with the tangled-free hair. The FREAKIN' PERFECT GIRL!!!!
All that Glamour, Grace, and Glory, who wouldn't want that? If you ask me, I badly want it. I want to make rampa in every beauty contest and then, say the perfect answer in the Q&A, have the perfect talent na hindi ako sasablay, and flaunt that perfect body, fez, and the brains. (Kung maka-pantasya lola mo diba? Kala mo ang ganda eh. LOL. Nadala ba kita sa imagination ko!)
I wish to be in a cover of some fashion magazines. (Ambisyosa! Hahaha!)Don't judge. Nangangarap lang te. Libre yon. KTNXBYE. On the serious note, I'm really all for that, If only given the body and the fez. CHAR!!
Before nung bagets pa aketch, I collect magazines like Candy, Preview, Meg, Chalk, Name it. I have it. I would spend hundreds (dekwat sa allowance) just to get a mag.
What I uploaded were the pictures I saw when I was young, when they made me join these little pageants and my mom used to tell me she would like me to join in such and live her dream of becoming some Beauty Queen.
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| I believe the sash says: "Ms. Valentines" |
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Oh taray!! Parang napilitan lang ng ngumiti!! |
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| From Left to Right: Me, (I can't remember his name), Arjoy (My cousin) |
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| Oh taray!! Ms. Universe ang Sash, KABOG!!! :)) |
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| Is this the Swim wear? :) |
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| Oh my!! My cousins are gonna kill me if they see this posted!! :)) |
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| With my two cousins Karla & Arjoy :) |
Okay so, when I was 3rd year High School, meron YES Camp (Youth for Environment Summer CAMP) in Iloilo. Actually, na-enganyo lang naman talaga akesh sumama kasi, malapit sa Bora, ayun nagbabakasakali lang naman ako na maybe I can make my teacher agree to going there after our camp.
Sabi ni Sir Steve, lahat ng mga sasama, dapat may mga category na sasalihan, tapos, eh ang slot nalang is yung Search for Ambassador & Ambassadress for YES Camp. Eh ako naman kasi ate madeska naman ako, kaya sabi nila jumoin na akembang sa Pageant. Eh ako, minsan mahilig akong mag inarte, sabi ko may ganders naman ako eh, medyo pransya lang at slight majubis pero keri lang!! So ayun. Sabi ko gora na ako!! Ayun, rampa naman ang pechay! :))
Ayun, sabi ni Sir Steve, i-ready ko daw ang talent at gown ko. So I figured I wanted to design my own gown, tapos, ayun, may kakilala ako magaling tumahi and I let her sew it. Yung gown daw should just be composed of environmental elements like leaves/seeds/Abaka/etc. so 'eto ang preview ng gown:
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| Ayun ako in the middle, yung pinakabonggang gown! CHOS!!! |
 Mr. Renz Fajardo  Ganito sya ka H-O-T!!  Eto yung tatlong judges na gwapo!! Sila Renz, Kenneth and I forgot the other one! Feeling ko ang hipon ko talaga pagkatapos nung talent portion. As in! At ang masakit pa, nanalo pa ng 3rd place yung partner ko sa over-all pageant. Tapos ang laki-laki ng trophy nya! Kalurkey! I cried pero not after the pageant, Crumayola nalang ako kinabukasan. As in hikbi 'te! Swear! Late reaction ako eh. Hahaha! :)) Luz Valdez eh. First time kung sumali, first time ko din matalo. Kaloka! Ayun. Oh eto mga pics namin before and after the pageant: |
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| In our room getting ready for the Q&A, Sad to say, Wala akong grace under pressure. Kasi Pressured na pressured ako. |
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| Before the Pageant, With Chris Manguera, my partner, who garnered 3rd place! |
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| This was the time they were calling out the winners for the next round, yung mga pasok sa Q&A questions. |
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| Sadly, napababa ako, hindi ako nakasama sa mga mag Q-Q&A |
What I really wanted to do was...
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| Pero next day pa yan nangyari, If I remeber correctly nasa Bulaluhan kami nun nung umiiyak ako. Hahahaha! |
If ever given the chance, in the near future, na makasali ako ulit sa isang Beauty Pageant, paghahandaan ko talaga at paghihirapan, I will make myself better and ready then maybe, I can say na maoovercome ko na yung pagka-frustrated beauty queen ko. I'll make it a point na I will win this time (CHOS) para ma-cross out ko na sana yun sa list ng To-do's before I die. (Kahit sa barangay lang, lord.) LOL. I hope na before I die, or before I turn 30, maka-get over ako sa Pageant na yun and I can say na I tried to be a beauty Queen. I don't want to have "what ifs" in the end.
Thank you for all these people who tried to calm me down while I was waaaayyyyy pressured sa Q&A practice. I crumbled.
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| Instead of Bora, dyan nalang kami sa katabing beach ng Apartment namin!! Namumugto pa mata ko oh!! |
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| Bakit kaya wala ako???? I'm sure may pic din akong ganyan eh!! hahaha! |
And sana ganito ang drama:
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| If ever, Im gonna be this ready!! |
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| Thank you Bambi Fuentes for my hair and make up |
And try din natin ng ganito:
I want to be able to say: THE STANDARD OF BEAUTY IS NOT DEFINITE; WE DEFINE IT.
And all the people would be like....
Kahit na isa ako ganap na frustrated Beauty Queen, sometimes I ask do I need to really fit in with everyone’s idea of “beauty” and “perfection”, or just happy to be myself, regardless? They say beauty is skin deep daw and the world is constantly saying that physical beauty has no significance, but why is it that when we look around, everything is so superficial? Just a thought.
Oh well... So, I think that's it for now. I'll just keep you guys posted. Ta-tah!!
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